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Trust in the Mystery

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“… to be human
is to become visible
while carrying
what is hidden
as a gift to others…”
~ David Whyte

This is so beautiful. We all carry certain gifts, visible and hidden, known and unknown. Unknown sometimes even to ourselves, which is why it’s so important to honor who we are, just as we are.

A little prayer from the heart, to do just that. Open myself up to all the gifts unknown, to trust in the mystery.

Mother earth, father god,
Help me surrender.
Show me how to give in.
Into my heart,
And never give up.

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The Cartography of Trust

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You are here
Life is unfolding…
… Right before you.

The journey of life isn’t inscribed in the heavens or on any map; it unfolds moment by moment, day by day, and year by year. This can be very exciting, as it means so many opportunities lie ahead. However the unknown factor can also be a cause of anxiety and worry.

Not knowing what might happen from one turn to the next, trying to stand on our highest of tippy toes to see as far ahead as possible, to feel as though we have it all figured out, only to get toppled over and sent down a very different path than originally anticipated.

Many of us have a tendency to want to know what lies ahead. We plan things out and make sure everything is in its right place, but life moves of its own accord, often leaving us in a place of uncertainty, or for some, in full-on freak-out mode.

Standing at point A, many prefer to have a direct path to point B. Sometimes these two points on our map are clear as day; we know where we are and where we want to be, however, we’re still not quite sure of how to get there.

Or on the flip side, sometimes we’re familiar with the terrain that lies ahead on our path, but have no idea where this will actually lead us. In either situation, there’s an element of mystery, and we are faced with uncharted territory.

Personally, I have mixed feelings about the unknown. I like to think of myself as an easygoing kind of gal that loves a good adventure – throwing myself into the abyss and making the very best out of what I’m given. I try.

I try my best, but often there’s a storm before the calm, and I trash around inside kicking and fighting the unknown. Anxiety swells up and I feel lost — horribly lost — and desperately try to consult the omens and signs for clarity.

Anxiety is somewhat of a nemesis for me. However, I’ve come to accept it as being part of myself — a companion on this journey that I once saw as a major weakness, but now has become one of my greatest teachers.

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You see, once I started to really look at why I was experiencing anxiety, I realized that it was all fear-based. But the thing is, most of what I have feared and worried about has never come to fruition.

And if it did, well I’m still here, and I made it through, and maybe, just maybe, I became a bit wiser for it too. I’ve learned that it is possible to have anxiety and not let it paralyze me. I can surrender to the storm, allowing the winds to blow me where they will, trusting that I’ll land on my feet.

I find this surrender come when I remember to quiet my mind and listen to my heart, instead of my thoughts. When I am connected within myself, the anxieties and worries of life seem to have less of an impact on the way I react to events.

Now it’s not perfect, there’s still the trashing and tears (oh god, the tears), but every time I catch myself freaking out, I know I can come back to my heart, listen, take some deep breaths, and connect again with that calm.

Once we open ourselves up to trust, it’s much easier to move forward on the path and follow it with our hearts rather than our minds. The signs and guides pop up like magic before us and we feel supported by the Universe as we draw the map of our lives.

Until we can surrender to the Grace of the unknown, to the potential of the mystery, these beacons can easily elude us in our panic, being overshadowed by our storm. The big lesson in all of this is that the anxiety — the panic and the worry — doesn’t serve us one bit.

It doesn’t make the path ahead of us any clearer. For me, it hasn’t revealed any illuminating insights or clarity, except for the fact that I needn’t feed into it anymore.

So trust in your heart, in both the known and unknown. Embrace every step of the journey from point A all the way to point Z. Even though our fears and worries might not completely vanish, remember that they can serve as teachers instead of foes.

They can show us when we need to be still and tune into our heart, surrendering even more to trust. It will all come to you.

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When We Hit The Wall

The ebb and flow of the creative process presents us with two very different ways of looking at the times of stillness. It can feel like a dreaded curse, or an invitation to enter our soft inner cocoon and transform, even just a little.

This poem is for everyone who has ever felt stuck, lost and hopeless, and is a reminder that only in the darkness can we see the stars.

When We Hit The Wall

{A Poem} By Jenn Lui

The landscape before us changes
There is an unbearable stillness
In the air that grows stale and wretch
All colors fade and retreat

The great expanse curls and shrivel
Dries up on itself and shrinks
Hardened and cruel
Into the wall before us pressing tightly

The air grows thicker and thicker
Gasping and panicking we scream
Our bloody fingers scratching
For freedom beyond this confinement

We look up and see the engulfing dark sky above
Stars shining brighter than ever before
Amazed and bewildered we stare
And see the same stars in each other’s eyes

We remember once again the greatest truth
Of the magnificent illusion
The continuous nature of time and space
Our hurried heart beats begin to slow

Suddenly the hard and jagged walls soften
Surrounding us instead like a blanket
Warm and gentle beckoning us to rest
Our healing cocoon holding us safely

When we hit the wall
It can be hard, cold and cruel
Or softly inviting us to transformation
Until we emerged anew into the world

Bleed it out

Photo: Bleed it out by Jenn Grosso

Within this stuck-ness, if I can dig a little deeper and open myself up a little more, there’s a well inside waiting. Waiting for me to have the courage to embrace it all and bleed it out.

“There is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed.”
~ Ernest Hemingway

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The Delicate Art Of Trusting Our Internal Cues

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“There is a universal, intelligent, life force that exists within everyone and everything. It resides within each one of us as a deep wisdom, an inner knowing. We can access this wonderful source of knowledge and wisdom through our intuition, an inner sense that tells us what feels right and true for us at any given moment.” ~ Shakti Gawain

“Please Universe, give me a sign!”… I have heard myself say these words throughout the years.

In moments of uncertainty and confusion, it is easy to look outside ourselves and desperately attempt to catch the ear of divine intervention and beg its guidance.

I have realized, however, that the times I have taken leaps and bounds in my own life are when I have completely trusted myself and gone with my own intuition. When I held my breath and just went for it because it felt inexplicably right. I have known, forgotten, and come to know again, that trusting myself will always lead me to what I need to experience and learn in order to move forward.

What fascinates me is that we are quick to respond to the external signs pointing towards our desires, but when those signs are in opposition of what we desire, we often experience anxiety and worry over things not turning out as we’d envisioned them.

What is important to remember, however, is that the signs that make us feel a bit of fear or discomfort are usually the ones that will bring us to the real place — often unbeknownst to us — that we wanted to get to all along.

We quantify good signs and bad, but do not consider that maybe sometimes, to get to where we want to be, we might have to go backwards or sideways before we can progress forward. Isn’t that what trusting the process is all about? Trusting that each step will bring us exactly where we need to be, and to learn exactly what we need to learn?

I have come to experience that the signs appearing externally from us, originate from within ourselves to begin with. What I mean is that, when we trust our internal cues, even when they are not fully known to us, the external signs are only mirroring what we already know on the inside.

All the knowledge of time and space are found within our cells, everything that we need, we already have. So why is it sometimes so very difficult to trust ourselves, to take that step forward without some external validation? If we trust our inner knowing, this will always have a powerful effect on our external environment. We shape our reality first, by listening to ourselves.

And herein lies the challenge, to become quiet enough to hear that voice within — to trust it and surrender to our own deep knowing. When we allow space and time to reflect inwards, we begin hearing what our intuition is trying to tell us.

“The quieter you become, the more you can hear.” ~ Ram Dass

So quiet your mind, quiet your heart and listen… Tune into yourself. In this silence, we can hear. Follow that inner voice, gut feeling, intuition… Follow your inner compass.

Originally published on Rebelle Society.

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Perils Of The Living: A Truth Seeker’s Manifesto

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For those of us who continuously look to knock down the barriers of the ego and strive to always put forth our true self, life is a perilous journey. I say embrace it; embrace the light, the dark and the grey in between. Embrace every moment as it comes.

“Chaos is what we’ve lost touch with. This is why it is given a bad name. It is feared by the dominant archetype of our world, which is Ego, which clenches because its existence is defined in terms of control.” ~ Terence McKenna

I’ve come to know within myself, that the best remedy for the struggles in life is to trust, to smile at the fleeting nature of it all as we try to find peace walking the beautifully precarious path of self-discovery. In every moment, when things are easy, and in every moment when things are hard as all hell, inhabiting that moment and trusting that the next will be exactly how it needs to be.

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Trust in the Process.

“The next message you need is always right where you are.” ~ Ram Dass

For the times we feel lost, when we have come out of touch with our sense of direction, it’s time to stand still. Breath in our now and remember that sometimes the way forward is simply trusting the questions, trusting that all will fall into place.

“Live your questions now, and perhaps even without knowing it, you will live along some distant day into your answers.” ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

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And really, all who wander are not lost. So wander curiously with an open mind and heart, wander with your questions and never forget that in the end, we’re all part of the whole. From the very beginning we were connected, we were never alone. The stumbling and messiness is all part of the process. As perilous as life can be, it’s all that we have and it’s all bringing us back home.

“None of us knows what might happen even the next minute, yet still we go forward. Because we trust. Because we have Faith.” ~ Paulo Coelho

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