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The Way Through

The {Way Through} doesn’t always look like we expect it, and it certainly doesn’t come when called upon… It eventually comes from going deep inside ourselves and sitting with our confusion, with our questions, and with our thrashing.

The {Way Through} comes when we have silenced ourselves, given up our relentless questioning and surrendered to the Nothing. Then, of course then, is when our Truth comes rushing in; like a fresh gust of Air, like a wave hitting you in the face.

There it is.

The {Way Through}.

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Surrender To Your Silence

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“Silence and Winter has led me to that otherness.
So let this Winter of listening be enough,
For the new life I must call my own.”
~ David Whyte

Surrender to your Silence
Surrender to the Silence of this sleeping land
Surrender to the Silence of this season
This is the time for Listening.

The Winter Solstice is a time to celebrate the growth done in Darkness and the slow magic of the Light in it’s own time. Once again the wheel turns towards the waxing journey of the Light, but this is not done quickly. Slowly we listen, slowly we awaken. The dance of light and shadows continues on. But here on this day, we are assured that the Light will always return.

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The Cartography of Trust

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You are here
Life is unfolding…
… Right before you.

The journey of life isn’t inscribed in the heavens or on any map; it unfolds moment by moment, day by day, and year by year. This can be very exciting, as it means so many opportunities lie ahead. However the unknown factor can also be a cause of anxiety and worry.

Not knowing what might happen from one turn to the next, trying to stand on our highest of tippy toes to see as far ahead as possible, to feel as though we have it all figured out, only to get toppled over and sent down a very different path than originally anticipated.

Many of us have a tendency to want to know what lies ahead. We plan things out and make sure everything is in its right place, but life moves of its own accord, often leaving us in a place of uncertainty, or for some, in full-on freak-out mode.

Standing at point A, many prefer to have a direct path to point B. Sometimes these two points on our map are clear as day; we know where we are and where we want to be, however, we’re still not quite sure of how to get there.

Or on the flip side, sometimes we’re familiar with the terrain that lies ahead on our path, but have no idea where this will actually lead us. In either situation, there’s an element of mystery, and we are faced with uncharted territory.

Personally, I have mixed feelings about the unknown. I like to think of myself as an easygoing kind of gal that loves a good adventure – throwing myself into the abyss and making the very best out of what I’m given. I try.

I try my best, but often there’s a storm before the calm, and I trash around inside kicking and fighting the unknown. Anxiety swells up and I feel lost — horribly lost — and desperately try to consult the omens and signs for clarity.

Anxiety is somewhat of a nemesis for me. However, I’ve come to accept it as being part of myself — a companion on this journey that I once saw as a major weakness, but now has become one of my greatest teachers.

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You see, once I started to really look at why I was experiencing anxiety, I realized that it was all fear-based. But the thing is, most of what I have feared and worried about has never come to fruition.

And if it did, well I’m still here, and I made it through, and maybe, just maybe, I became a bit wiser for it too. I’ve learned that it is possible to have anxiety and not let it paralyze me. I can surrender to the storm, allowing the winds to blow me where they will, trusting that I’ll land on my feet.

I find this surrender come when I remember to quiet my mind and listen to my heart, instead of my thoughts. When I am connected within myself, the anxieties and worries of life seem to have less of an impact on the way I react to events.

Now it’s not perfect, there’s still the trashing and tears (oh god, the tears), but every time I catch myself freaking out, I know I can come back to my heart, listen, take some deep breaths, and connect again with that calm.

Once we open ourselves up to trust, it’s much easier to move forward on the path and follow it with our hearts rather than our minds. The signs and guides pop up like magic before us and we feel supported by the Universe as we draw the map of our lives.

Until we can surrender to the Grace of the unknown, to the potential of the mystery, these beacons can easily elude us in our panic, being overshadowed by our storm. The big lesson in all of this is that the anxiety — the panic and the worry — doesn’t serve us one bit.

It doesn’t make the path ahead of us any clearer. For me, it hasn’t revealed any illuminating insights or clarity, except for the fact that I needn’t feed into it anymore.

So trust in your heart, in both the known and unknown. Embrace every step of the journey from point A all the way to point Z. Even though our fears and worries might not completely vanish, remember that they can serve as teachers instead of foes.

They can show us when we need to be still and tune into our heart, surrendering even more to trust. It will all come to you.

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Not Saved

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For those discouraging days, when we might catch ourselves asking to be saved from challenging emotions, a reminder that it’s all grist for the mill. When we can ease gently into our unpleasant thoughts and feelings, we begin to surrender little by little and see the lessons behind it all, feeling it all, learning from it all. No saving necessary.

Not Saved
{A Poem} by Jenn Lui

Those days
When we carry a heavy heart
And sadness wells up inside
The tears pour out uncontrollably
We hope for salvation.
This notion of being saved
It doesn’t come from the outside
And it’s not about saving ourselves
From discomfort
But with every painful emotion
We can release our grip
Onto expecting it to go away.
Instead
See that we are meeting our teacher
And honor the humanness
That brings us to our knees.
Know that place inside
Unaffected by the mind’s waves
That sees us as beautifully
Part of it all
Not needing any saving.

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Letting Go and Letting Be

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Apranihita is the Sanskrit term for the teaching of aimlessness and means not setting an object or goal in front of you and running after it. It means to release the need to know and to have. To just be.

“We must bring a revolution in our thinking: we must stop. We must do as the flower does. The flower is aware of the fact that it contains everything within it, the whole cosmos, and it does not try to become something else. It is the same for you.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

For me, right now, this means releasing the need to know the way forward, sometimes it’s through aimlessness that all is revealed. Taking some deep breaths and surrendering.

And after this video/meditation, you really can’t help but to surrender.
Even just a little.

The Great Bell Chant (The End of Suffering)
Read by Thich Nath Hanh, chanted by brother Phap Niem.

“May the sound of this bell penetrate deep into the kosmos even in the darkest spots. Living beings are able to hear it clearly so that all suffering in them cease. Understanding comes to their heart and they transcend the path of sorrow and death. The universal dharma door is already open. The sound of the rising tide is heard clearly. The miracle happens, a beautiful child appears in the heart of a lotus flower. One single drop of this compassionate water is enough to bring back the refreshing spring to our mountains and rivers. Listening to the bell I feel the afflictions in me begin to dissolve. My mind calm. My body relax. A smile is born on my lips. Following the sound of the bell my breathe brings me back to the safe island of mindfulness. In the garden of my heart the flowers of peace bloom beautifully.” ~ Thich Nath Hanh

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