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The Cartography of Trust

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Life is unfolding…
… Right before you.

The journey of life isn’t inscribed in the heavens or on any map; it unfolds moment by moment, day by day, and year by year. This can be very exciting, as it means so many opportunities lie ahead. However the unknown factor can also be a cause of anxiety and worry.

Not knowing what might happen from one turn to the next, trying to stand on our highest of tippy toes to see as far ahead as possible, to feel as though we have it all figured out, only to get toppled over and sent down a very different path than originally anticipated.

Many of us have a tendency to want to know what lies ahead. We plan things out and make sure everything is in its right place, but life moves of its own accord, often leaving us in a place of uncertainty, or for some, in full-on freak-out mode.

Standing at point A, many prefer to have a direct path to point B. Sometimes these two points on our map are clear as day; we know where we are and where we want to be, however, we’re still not quite sure of how to get there.

Or on the flip side, sometimes we’re familiar with the terrain that lies ahead on our path, but have no idea where this will actually lead us. In either situation, there’s an element of mystery, and we are faced with uncharted territory.

Personally, I have mixed feelings about the unknown. I like to think of myself as an easygoing kind of gal that loves a good adventure – throwing myself into the abyss and making the very best out of what I’m given. I try.

I try my best, but often there’s a storm before the calm, and I trash around inside kicking and fighting the unknown. Anxiety swells up and I feel lost — horribly lost — and desperately try to consult the omens and signs for clarity.

Anxiety is somewhat of a nemesis for me. However, I’ve come to accept it as being part of myself — a companion on this journey that I once saw as a major weakness, but now has become one of my greatest teachers.

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You see, once I started to really look at why I was experiencing anxiety, I realized that it was all fear-based. But the thing is, most of what I have feared and worried about has never come to fruition.

And if it did, well I’m still here, and I made it through, and maybe, just maybe, I became a bit wiser for it too. I’ve learned that it is possible to have anxiety and not let it paralyze me. I can surrender to the storm, allowing the winds to blow me where they will, trusting that I’ll land on my feet.

I find this surrender come when I remember to quiet my mind and listen to my heart, instead of my thoughts. When I am connected within myself, the anxieties and worries of life seem to have less of an impact on the way I react to events.

Now it’s not perfect, there’s still the trashing and tears (oh god, the tears), but every time I catch myself freaking out, I know I can come back to my heart, listen, take some deep breaths, and connect again with that calm.

Once we open ourselves up to trust, it’s much easier to move forward on the path and follow it with our hearts rather than our minds. The signs and guides pop up like magic before us and we feel supported by the Universe as we draw the map of our lives.

Until we can surrender to the Grace of the unknown, to the potential of the mystery, these beacons can easily elude us in our panic, being overshadowed by our storm. The big lesson in all of this is that the anxiety — the panic and the worry — doesn’t serve us one bit.

It doesn’t make the path ahead of us any clearer. For me, it hasn’t revealed any illuminating insights or clarity, except for the fact that I needn’t feed into it anymore.

So trust in your heart, in both the known and unknown. Embrace every step of the journey from point A all the way to point Z. Even though our fears and worries might not completely vanish, remember that they can serve as teachers instead of foes.

They can show us when we need to be still and tune into our heart, surrendering even more to trust. It will all come to you.

Published on Rebelle Society.

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Making Light Of The Shadows

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Jenn Lui – Day 305 of 365 Picture a Day Project

When I sit with my ancestors, I’m sitting with everything that has ever been/was and is. We are all connected. Celebrating this boundless interconnection on this Day of the Dead.

Feliz Dia de Los Muertos. May we remember and be grateful for the time we have here and for the people we share it with. I am SO thankful.

Making light of the shadows,
I bow to the cycle of life and death.
Honoring all that has come before me,
I celebrate life, by remembering the dead.

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Perils Of The Living: A Truth Seeker’s Manifesto

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For those of us who continuously look to knock down the barriers of the ego and strive to always put forth our true self, life is a perilous journey. I say embrace it; embrace the light, the dark and the grey in between. Embrace every moment as it comes.

“Chaos is what we’ve lost touch with. This is why it is given a bad name. It is feared by the dominant archetype of our world, which is Ego, which clenches because its existence is defined in terms of control.” ~ Terence McKenna

I’ve come to know within myself, that the best remedy for the struggles in life is to trust, to smile at the fleeting nature of it all as we try to find peace walking the beautifully precarious path of self-discovery. In every moment, when things are easy, and in every moment when things are hard as all hell, inhabiting that moment and trusting that the next will be exactly how it needs to be.

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Trust in the Process.

“The next message you need is always right where you are.” ~ Ram Dass

For the times we feel lost, when we have come out of touch with our sense of direction, it’s time to stand still. Breath in our now and remember that sometimes the way forward is simply trusting the questions, trusting that all will fall into place.

“Live your questions now, and perhaps even without knowing it, you will live along some distant day into your answers.” ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

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And really, all who wander are not lost. So wander curiously with an open mind and heart, wander with your questions and never forget that in the end, we’re all part of the whole. From the very beginning we were connected, we were never alone. The stumbling and messiness is all part of the process. As perilous as life can be, it’s all that we have and it’s all bringing us back home.

“None of us knows what might happen even the next minute, yet still we go forward. Because we trust. Because we have Faith.” ~ Paulo Coelho

Originally published on Rebelle Society.

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Grace Amongst The Wreckage

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“You cannot find peace by avoiding life.” ~ Virginia Woolf

I find myself contemplating on grace these days, what it means to live life gracefully, to tackle our life’s challenges with grace. I’m interpreting grace as being in contact with the inner part of us that knows peace and vulnerability. Grace as I see it is being in touch with universal love and with our minds firmly rooted in living in the moment, the complete opposite of living through our egos.

To have grace or this peace that is alluded to, doesn’t mean that we don’t have conflict or challenges. It’s quite the opposite really. Conflict will always arise whether it is from inside of us or on the outside. To live with grace is to embrace life’s ups and downs and to be fully present in experiencing the whole scale of emotions but to know that these do not define us.

I think we can all agree that this is one of those “easier said than done” deals.

I do not at all understand the mystery of grace – only that it meets us where we are but does not leave us where it found us. ~ Anne Lamott

As I reflect on how I deal with difficult situations or emotions, grace isn’t one of the words I would consistently use to describe my coping skills. Sometimes in the midst of a shit show kind of a day, I think to myself, “Damn girl, you’re a mess”. Anxiety and fear can paralyze and bring out the worst in us, let’s just say it isn’t pretty. It’s when we identify with our worries and fears that they begin to have power over us, that the ego steps in and morphs our perception. Here we can forget about what we do have, all that we can be grateful for, and instead focus on all that is lacking in ourselves and our lives.

“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me.” ~ Frank Herbert

However, the beautiful thing about grace is that even when we fail (sometimes miserably) we can pick ourselves up and try again. We have the opportunity to try again every day; every waking moment presents us with a chance to practice living more gracefully.

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There are helpers on the road to living with more grace; they are the practices that allow us to come in touch with ourselves, the ones that chip away at the ego. Whether it be hitting the yoga mat, a meditation practice, a hobby we enjoy doing or any creative outlet. Entering this sacred time for oneself helps to push away all the thoughts and feelings that don’t serve or benefit us. Here I try to the best of my abilities to release what hinders my contact with peace and grace. Carrying this into the rest of my day and hopefully into the more challenging times. And here lies the true practice. Staying connected to grace instead of freaking out. Sometimes I’m successful and sometimes it’s a total shit show.

I try and try again.

When we’re at our worst, faltering and failing completely, when it’s easier to come down on ourselves, those are the moments that we need to show ourselves more than ever that love and compassion. The whole breaking down part can be part of grace, that’s us being vulnerable. The turning point is the choice we have between letting this overpower us or picking up the pieces and choosing to love ourselves instead, to step away from our ego and show ourselves compassion while smiling at the fleeting nature of it all. That’s grace.

“To love yourself right now, just as you are, is to give yourself heaven. Don’t wait until you die. If you wait, you die now. If you love, you live now.” ~ Alan Cohen

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Originally published on Elephant Journal.

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